Tuesday, December 30, 2008

lost in sensation


the sweat
cascaded obnoxiously down my neck
my back
my brow

this sun
searing through my thin clothes
stamping my nose
with a few fresh batches
of freckles

browning my shoulders
my thighs
this is not the sun of my childhood

it's a subtropical
blindingly reckless sun
not meant
for irish girls like me

my once red-brown hair
is now
sunbleached yellow straw

i crave japanese lager
pickled ginger
salty seaweed and silky tofu

i like toasty-brown-skinned
black-ponytailed
lithe hippie loners

i love the heady waft
of incense
as i zoom past
temple after shrine
on my funky no-speed bike

some things you thought
were mistakes
were not mistakes at all

i ride

breathing in
the cool absence of constraint
and basking in the heat of discovery

Monday, December 29, 2008

marching on


us arrogant folk believe we have some say over what happens in our lives- ha. i nod to the elegant mommy penguin. i have just had the most aggressively annoying day. nothing going "my way". (yeah, EXACTLY.)
i come home. i bow. i do the laundry, the dinner, i turn on the tree lights and light a fire. i pour myself a glass and rest. yes, i see. i am not always right.
so. here comes bedtime. per usual, my son is one step ahead. in bed, holding forth the book "A Mother's Journey". calm face. huge brown eyes. he knows. I read and hold back the tears. if you haven't seen "March of the Penguins", go now. it's all about knowledge. supreme intuition. what it means to be alive. a mommy. a daddy. a family.
i am so. blessed.